I was just looking through the site searching the word beautiful. that word comes in my head allot when im happy, it really is that i only have two moods and the positive is rare but becoming more who i am now and im glad for that, but my idea of beauty... i don't know if it is a common one but i got it completely form another person. before i met her i had no real idea what it was and certainly no concern in looking for it or even finding out what it was. but the day i said hello and heard her voice come back to me and make my eyes close, i realized what it was and why it was so important. but on that day i hadn't seen it fully. i don't think you really can see true beauty for the first time and know what your seeing and how to react to it. my first time to truly understand it was the day i fell in love. raining , one of those days where the sun breaks here and there like gods pointing to those things hes most proud of making, i was listening to my cds and watching her as she listened to hers . for a while i sat wiping the rain from my face and thinking if i should try to touch hers, and then she looked at me. she reached for my head phones and took them and of course never asks and gave me hers putting it to a song that she loved. it was the postal service brand new colony, this was the beginning of our relationship that was almost centered around this cd.. and i didn't realize until the end, our beginning was built on music about the end. but, as i sat there listening she put on my head phones and as she moved back her hair and her eyes moved up to meet mine that was it. that was the moment that i knew i loved her and that i was always going to. at this time she didn't love me, i like to think that she did at least a little before it was all over, but i wasn't wrong that day. i will always love her. this was some years ago but that day is one that i revisit from time to time and sit smiling. well this girl gave me my view of what beauty is and what a person can be. when beauty comes to mind i see her standing on the other side of the road in some big city with a dress a flower and one of those warm smiles. well im not very good with how i express what i mean so you'll have to kind fill in some gaps but thats my idea of what beauty is. ma bey one day ill see my idea of beauty, and this time ill walk across that road and ill show her what it feels like to be in love.